Blurb away from blurb

I woke up today feeling a little bit ill.

Coincidentally, I wasn't feeling great before sleep either.

I'm not sure why I'm doing this typing here as I have nothing of special length to go on about but I kinda feel like mixing it up a bit today.

I Walked with Pokémon during my day of work. This was fairly productive but I can see the value and shine wearing off sooner than I'd like due to the fact that levels gained while walking don't give you new moves or evolutions. That said, I am getting trade fodder and items that I can't buy. I wouldn't say that I walked much more than usual though. #NintendoSurreptitiousKeepFitFail

When I'm visualising things I stare into the middle distance with my eyes held remarkably open. [He remarked.]

I still haven't read any of the books I got boothers to pick for me in January. I stopped about three chapters into Pride & Prejudice & Zombies due me not quite being able to visualise who was who and realising that the bits that I found hilariously juxtaposed to the source material were actually fixed into the rhythm of the book in a semi-predictable manner and had therefore lost their bite. *inhale*

I really need to work on my sentence length. And my drivelling-on length.

If this fairy has offended, think but this and all is mended: I like your face.

So this is Easter, and what have you done?

I've spend the past week attempting to be a little detached and aloof from/towards the internet. It has made be feel a bit weird.

I've caught up on tv quite a bit, I've spent time in the company of my parents, I've played a fair bit of Pokémon and I've generally felt a little more laid back. It's kind of like what Peter Serofinowicz said on Twitter earlier about Facebook being a part-time job. I wouldn't say that the people I've come into contact with through the many mediums of the internet are a burden. You are all the exact opposite. You make me feel more connected to the world and you make me feel very lucky to have that connection.

I do feel sometimes though, that the connector to this world of people being such a steadfastly plugged in appliance drags me away from a great deal of other things.

That said, there is little to no chance of me prioritising a laptop purchase over the many other things that are on my calendar because in so many of them I get to meet the very people that make me want to sit in my room, jacked in.

All of these connections are being limited by the funds and the time available to me. The time is something I am privileged to be able to flex around events if need be. The money, not so much.

I've been in the same job now for four and a half years. In that time, I have gone from simple receptionist up to person in charge, only to find that I couldn't take the responsibility and step down. Now I am the most over-qualified receptionist there is. I know everything there is to know about nigh on everything in the building and can fix many problems with a couple of taps, a flick and a flourish. But I still don't feel I have the stability in my confidence to step up to be in charge. My steadfastness is based largely on my mood and what I've consumed during the day and that is far too inconsistent to put myself into difficult situations with customer facing responsibilities.

So I'm feeling kinda stuck. I need to push myself to find something more rewarding in the long term. I'm finding it difficult to push myself to complete important short-term commitments such as filling in the form for my new passport or making my room a place that I can take pride in.

And that's what's been going on with me recently.